To the Whole Ummah — My Story
By Shahinaz El Ramly, Edupreneur | ESSDS
When I was just four years old, I stood on a couch, watching a milkman holding a measuring cup to sell three kilos of milk to my mother. I remember wondering: What is he doing? Why is he pouring the milk this way? That was the first moment I began to think. A soul blown from the moon to Earth — that is what I felt like. An allele touched by an angel’s breath.
Later, in first grade, I wanted to write. I pulled out an old copybook hidden under the bed and began imitating my sister Hewaida’s handwriting. My pages were filled with zigzags and broken lines, but to me, they were the seeds of expression. Hewaida said, “She writes like this — she is smart.” Yet, my mother responded with cold doubt: “She’s just doing anything.” From that moment, I began to feel the first sting of what would become years of emotional dampening — not a lack of intelligence, but a war against my will to learn.
When I was 17, I had another awakening. I began to truly read, to listen, and to think critically. I dreamed of having my own apartment, my own income, my own life. That dream never fully materialized. Despite graduating from Ain Shams and Cairo University, the greatest educational growth I found was through international platforms. I scored top grades abroad — proving that the problem was never me, but rather the environment I was forced to learn in.
I worked, I tried. But my career was rarely appreciated financially. I found myself unvalued, overworked, and alone. My journey led me to create ESSDSCOM.NET and become an Edupreneur — someone who believes in reshaping education for future generations.
Still, I cannot ignore this truth: Ethics 101 is missing in people. From every social level, I faced manipulation, control, and humiliation. Family interference crushed even the idea of marriage. I was made to fear it — to see it as a trap rather than a partnership. I did not find a friend or a husband. I did not find peace in the home of my parents. And yet, I never stopped walking the path of truth.
I have been belittled for how I earn a living. I have watched family and society rob me of joy and confidence. I have seen impolite behavior in those who should be innocent — even nephews and nieces. I live with sorrow. I have cried quietly. And yet, I am still Shahinaz — resilient and determined.
Now, I turn my heart to Allah, The All-Knowing, The All-Loving:
May He grant me a residence where I find safety and peace.
May He bless me with reputable income and dignified work.
May I memorize the meanings of the Holy Qur’an,
and continue to write, teach, and publish books online — digitally, honestly, powerfully.
I hope to find balance — in life, in work, in soul.
I say to you, Ghada, Hewaida, Dalia, Yasmine — and to the world:
“You cannot ask someone else to wipe away your tears.
Only your own hands can do that.”
May Allah witness my words.
With kindest regards,
Shahinaz El Ramly
Edupreneur | Founder of ESSDS
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